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Prompt #28 - Being Liked
Prompt 28
"If your number one goal is to make sure that everyone likes and approves of you, then you risk sacrificing your uniqueness and, therefore, your excellence"

I used to try to be liked. I trued to get the kids at school to like me, even if it meant doing some pretty stupid things. I mean I wanted Frankie and his gang to like me which was stupid. It took me years to realise how stupid that was. After that I didn’t care if the kids liked me or not, as long as I could sleep at night and the nightmares stopped. Sometimes I think they have.

I wanted Pop to like me but he never did, not even on the day he died. I tried but I couldn’t be what he wanted me to be. I think because he didn’t even know what he wanted from me. Ma loves me but Pop never even liked me. I don’t care anymore because I don’t like him, not now, not now I realise what he was doing to me for all those years.

I never really wanted to be liked at the station. I mean I tried, I tried to fit in but I didn’t. I was too loud, I had the attitude. Laurie, my first partner, was about the only person who liked me for me. All the rest of them just saw this loud mouthed cop who was going to get burnt out in a few years and end up with IA on his back. I nearly did.

Since then there’s only been one person who’s liked me for me; Benny. Benton Fraser doesn’t care abut the attitude, he can see right through my feeble attempts at fitting in and he doesn’t care. He’s even more oddball than I am, but somehow we fit together, somehow we make sense together. And he likes me, he thinks the best of me. Whatever it takes to keep that? That’s what I’m going to do. His approval means everything.