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Entry tags:	prompt 21

Prompt #21 - Untold story
Prompt #21 "There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you." - Mayay Angelou

There are some things I’m never going to tell anyone, maybe not even Benny; things about the past, my past, when I was a kid. Things about what Pop used to do when he got drunk, things he said. It’s not I’m ashamed it’s just some things like that I want to forget.

I know I’m never going to forget them; my memory is sometimes too good. I remember what he used to do; I remember how I felt as a little kid. Back then it was fear, now it’s anger. And even though I’m angry at him, think he’s a bastard I can’t stop trying to prove myself to him. I can’t stop protecting him from the rest of the world. It fine to think your own father’s an asshole but not anybody else’s.

So I’ve never told anyone stories about what he did. Even though it hurts to keep it all bottled up inside, not just one story, but many. It has to be. Maybe one day I'll tell, let the anger out. Maybe.